I have been have second thoughts about what I truly want to be when I "grow-up". I know as an RN I want to work in Labor & Delivery. When I was in nursing school I had one day in L&D. Only 1 day! I was able to see a cesarean and a vaginal delivery. Seeing a vaginal delivery was probably one of the most amazing moments in my life. At that moment I knew that this was the path I would take with my nursing career. From that point on I knew my future.
When my mom had me 27 years ago she went an alternative route and had me at home. She also did this with my younger sister. She had a nurse and doctor to come to the house but I don't think I liked that idea and came out before they got there. I was caught by my mother's friend who was a midwife in training. She was there to take pictures!
I have known for a long time that I want to have a natural birth. And I mean all natural. No pain medication. I know that some people may find that crazy but that is what I want. I want to have my children on my terms. Women have been doing it for thousands of years and I plan on doing it also. I also have previously thought that I would want to have my children at a stand alone birthing center. I now think that I want to have my children at home. One thing I know for sure is that I don't want to have my children in a hospital.
For the last year or so I have been contemplating the idea of becoming a midwife. I still want to finish and get my RN degree but I think I want to continue on to become a nurse midwife. I don't know everything this involves but I am pretty sure that this is what I want to do with my life. I respect everyones decision to have whatever birth process that they want but I want to be able to support people in the type of birth that isn't quite standard.
I have so much that I need to learn about before I make my final decision but right now it is the way that I am headed. I am kind of excited.